Archive for the ‘Mary of Egypt’ Category

Dealing with Spiritual Depression and Anxiety



The weather shifts from cloudy to clear and then back to rain; thus it is with human nature. One must always expect clouds to hide the sun sometimes. Even the saints have had their dark hours, days and weeks. They say then that “God has left them” in order that they may know truly how utterly wretched they are of themselves, without His support. These times of darkness, when all seems meaningless, ridiculous and vain, when one is beset by doubt and temptations, are inevitable. But even these times can be harvested for good.


The dark days can best be conquered by following the example of St. Mary of Egypt. For forty-eight years she dwelt in the desert beyond Jordan, and when temptations befell her and memories of her former sinful life in Alexandria beckoned her to leave her voluntary sojourn in the desert, she lay on the ground, cried to God for help and did not get up until her heart was humbled. The first years were hard; she sometimes had to lie this way for many days; but after seventeen years came the time of rest.


On such days stay quiet. Do not be persuaded to go out into social life or entertainment. Do not pity yourself, seek comfort in nothing but your cry to the Lord: “Haste thee, O God, to deliver me! Makes haste to help me, O Lord (Psalm 70:1)! I am so fast in prison that I cannot get forth (Psalm 88:8),” and other such appeals. You cannot expect real help from any other source. For the sake of chance relief do not throw away all your winnings. Pull the covers over your head; now your patience and steadfastness are being tried. If you endure the trial, thank God who gave you the strength. If you do not, rise up promptly, pray for mercy and think: I got what I deserved! For the fall itself was your punishment. You had relied too much on yourself, and now you see what it led to. You have had an experience; do not forget to give thanks.


from “Way of the Ascetics,” by Tito Colliander, San Francisco: Harper & Row Publishers, 1982, pp. 84-85


Dealing with Spiritual Depression and Anxiety : OMHKSEA.

Read Full Post »

Saint Mary of Egypt is commemorated on the fifth Sunday in Lent. She was born late in the 5th century in Egypt and ran away from home at the age of twelve, living on the streets of Alexandria, begging and prostituting herself.

At a young age, she encountered a group of pilgrims traveling to Jerusalem to venerate the True Cross. For amusement, she traveled with them, but upon reaching the church housing the relic, she was prevented by an unseen force from entering. She witnessed an Icon of the Virgin Mary on the patio of the church, and prayed to her the ability to enter the church and witness the Cross, promising to renounce her dissolute ways if permitted to enter. She experienced a sudden conversion and withdrew to the desert, living as an ascetic for 47 years.

As an elderly lady, she met Saint Zosima, an abbot, and recounted the story of her life which he then recorded for posterity. She demonstrated the gift of clairvoyance, communicating facts about the abbot’s life that nobody else knew.

A theme of Saint Mary of Egypt’s story is redemption of ordinary people who have fallen into a sinful existence.

Read Full Post »

%d bloggers like this: